t-r-u-t-h's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I think I may vomit. I'm under the impression I'm depressed. I don't leave the dorm room because I have no desire to. I want to stay in my little section of the room, by myself and sleep, listen to sad music and eat. I don't feel like moving and I don't feel like doing much at all. I haven't went to the rec in three days. Today is the third. I haven't been following my diet very well either. I just don't feel the need or want to. I feel kind of guilty about it too because I was doing so well but right now I just want to sleep more. Even when I'm awake I feel as though I'm asleep. It's not a good time. I haven't cleaned either. I haven't cleaned since Richard left. I'm a very clean person and right now it's hard to walk on my side of the room and it's hard to see my desk under all of the random crap that's on it. I miss Richard. I haven't missed him like this since high school. I've been anxious this whole last week, missing him and barely talking to him at all. I don't know what I'm doing really. I don't want to die or anything like that but I feel like the world is moving in slow motion and it won't stop. Alright. I'm pulling myself out of this. I can feel myself denying it even as I say it. I know that I can change my mood normally but right now it's going to be a whole hell of a lot harder than normal. 6:57 p.m. - 2006-03-02 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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