t-r-u-t-h's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- No Past. No Mistakes. I’ve missed him so much today. Something happened this weekend. Something that no words I know could describe... something that words could only touch in the slightest way. He came to me. He kept his word. I’m going to be honest. The first two days of the weekend were fun to have him around, it was nice to be near him and kiss him and touch him and see him laugh, but it was nothing compared to previous visits with him. And we fought. He could feel the distance between us and he wouldn’t stop until I opened up to him completely... After some frustration I broke, I gave in and I told him everything. It was... unexplainable... but after that everything just seemed to click again in this amazing way. It was that simple. All was right with the world and us. I miss him more than words can describe right now. He’s sleeping peacefully in his bed and I’m sitting on my bed, dreaming of him and wide awake. I can see the way he looked at me so clearly now. No.. That’s not the way to say what I mean. What I mean to say is that I can feel the way he looked at me so clearly now. God, I miss him. There’s this over riding need deep within me and, damn, it’s the best fucking feeling in the world. Needing this man like I need breath, it’s such a joy. I trust him again. I don’t know how it happened but in an instant he earned it back. Right now there is no pain. No past. No mistakes. Just the now and the future. Just the love and the tenderness. Please, Richard, don’t forget about my heart and the love you feel now. I won’t if you won’t. Cross my heart. 3:15 a.m. - 2006-01-05 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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