t-r-u-t-h's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Last Good thing. Okay, so this will be the second morning of not talking. I avoided it yesterday by drinking some and hanging out with my friend's a lot. Maybe today I'll avoid it by going to the Rec center with Josh and Denielle... who knows. I wonder how he is though. I'm sure not much has changed in his life. I mean, I've only been gone for a little over a day but I still wonder. I bet he hasn't even missed me yet... I would like to think that he has but honestly, with the way things were going in our relationship, just never talking, constant neglest fo one another... he probably doesn't miss me yet.
So I just wait. I live each day as a day and continue to go on with life. I think I'll stay here this weekend. There's too much time on my hands when I'm at home and here, though there's a lot of time, there's a lot of people too. I've decided that I'm not going to make this a relationshio thing. I'm not shopping around, not telling people about my new found singleness because I dont want to be innocent prey in the eyes of the vultures. The only thing I might even be remotely interested in would be a rebound... but I'm not ready for that yet. Honestly, I think I started moving on last week. I felt a lot worse then. I think it was because I still had some hope to cling to. Now I know that this is just the way it is and it's better. It's supposed to be better... I really wish he had a diary that I could go to to see how he's doing. Well, I need to go shower and go to my class. After class I have no idea what I'm doing. No need for a nap because I didnt get up until just now but we'll see. Honestly diary, I think I'm making you my Richard.
"Grand Theft Autumn" - Fall Out Boy. 9:53 a.m. - 2005-11-17 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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