t-r-u-t-h's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Killing me slowly. I don't know why things like this happen to me. I don't ask for it. I don't really ask for anything. I roll with what's given to me and I make the most of it. This whole grades thing, I'm over. I've taken it for what it is and now all I have to do is wait for the verdict. Either way I will be a survivor. But then there's that whole Richard thing. I really just don't know where to go with that. He says so many wonderful things but then his actions are very poor and they contradict the things he's saying. Tonight were on the phone for over an hour and talked for a maximum of ten minutes of it. Then he decided he needed to go play more games with his brother. It's so bad... he really hurt me again tonight. The worst part of all of it is that I tell him that he's hurting me and he doesn't do anything to make it better. He just continues on his way as though nothing's wrong at all. I'm tempting to start telling people I'm single and actually try to get someone else interested in me. It wouldn't be that hard. I'm an amazing flirt and I can be damn charming and I'm fucking cute... so.. I could do it. But I'd have to release myself from Richard first. Which s ridiculously hard because for some damn reason I'm really freakin' hopeful. Honestly, the things he does should have killed the hope by now, but no, not with me. I'm too hopeful for my own good. This is killing me slowly. 1:12 a.m. - 2006-05-13 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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