t-r-u-t-h's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I'm better than that. I dont understand people. There are so many of you who think I'm going to kill myself or something. You're worried about me or thinking about things I might do to myself, or wondering how I am with this feeling of pity in you heart. Yeah. I dont like it. First thing is first. I'm not a fucking weakling. There are so many things I've faced in my life that should have killed me or turned me in a terrible direction. But they didn't. I survived and unlike most people, the events made me stronger. I know that in some lights I may seem a bit pathetic, but you want to know why? Because it FUCKING HURTS to have your heart broken, okay?! It fucking hurts. Of course I'm going to be upset about it, but you know what else? I'm probably doing a lot better than you would think. After a two year and some month long relationship collapses most people would think to encounter a puddle of tears. I only the other hand have shed maybe three tears for Richard and I because I know, deep in my heart that if he's not the one, someone else will be and I will move on and be stronger and survive. I will fucking survive. I would never try and kill myself over a man. That's more than stupid. I have so much to offer the world and so much to offer someone out there that I would never even think of it seriously. Ridiculous. Honestly people. Have more respect for me. Maybe if you read this entry you'll understand why I deserve it. I am one strong fucking woman, and that's more than a lot of people can honestly say and be challenged again and again and still say. 9:54 p.m. - 2005-12-25 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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