t-r-u-t-h's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Acting. So it really isn't anyone's business what goes on between Richard and I and sometimes I just like to keep it that way. I like to pretend that all is good and well and that way I never have to cope with anything ever... I'm really, really good at pushing things back. Thoughts I can block out, emotions I can dampen and then push them down and away... I just can't block out or push back people knowing. Right now I see myself as this wonderful actress who must stay in character at all times and not let the world see the turmoil. It's not reall unhealthy because I do deal with things... slowly... but they're still dealt with. But when I'm acting out this play, rehearsing things in my mind I try not to stray from the script by thinking about these things that will take me out of the strong woman character. This is more of a 'wait and see' kind of things anymore. I just dont want to be bothered by it all. Why does everything have to be so damn complicated. What the hell happened to simplicity being a virtue??? Like chivalry, simplicity is dead. 11:47 a.m. - 2005-12-22 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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