t-r-u-t-h's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Worst friend ever? Last night Courtney took Denielle and I to KDR. It was kind of dead there but we stayed and while we were there I had a beer and Denielle had some cherry rum. We just kind of danced a little, walked around and hung out. After about an hour though we wanted to go. The boys get offended when they find out people are leaving to go to another party (especially girls; there were only about 15 of us and there were about 30 guys) so we made up a lie about having to take a friend who got into a fight to the hospital. It worked well. After leaving KDR we went to Darrell's house, Courtney's boyfriend, and felt a lot more comfortable and a lot happier. Darrell's is a good time because we know everyone. We got there at about midnight, a little before and the party was going strong. It was so fun. Dancing and drinking and talking to the people I'm used to. It was just really fun. Then Lenard shows up, Matt Lenard. Denielle wants on him really badly but says she won't do anything because she's "in love" with Shawn. As the party goes on we drink more and I decide I've had enough when I start feeling a little dizzy. Over the whole night Denielle doesn't drink much more then me but she keeps saying "I'm so drunk" when a hot guys around and leaning on me. It's still pretty fun though, even if she does start getting annoying. So we're dancing, slightly tipped and Lenard and his roomie... Dustin, I think, ask us to play beer pong against them. This was a sweet time. There's Fall Out Boy playing over the system and we're all singing and I'm sinking ping pong ball after ping pong ball into the cups. I'm int he zoen and the guys know it so to "distract" us they start flirting and crap. After we narrowly lose I ask Denielle if she's ready to go yet. It's 1am and I'm getting tired. She says "no, not yet" and we keep dancing and singing. The flirting between Lenard and Denielle continues. She become more provocative while dancing and she starts breaking some of the rules. Like, leaving her drink unattended for a period of time and then drinking it agian after she finds it. I tell her she shouldnt and keep trying to watch her back but she isn't having it. She can make her own choices or some crap like that. She seems pretty sober still though. And I think she likes that she's acting so drunk when she really doesn't seem it. It was like she wanted to act more drunk than she was to get more attention... or maybe it really would make her more drunk? I don't know. At this point I head upstairs to see what's going on. Vince and I have a show fight and he keeps trying to take pictures of me. Then I sit down on the couch next to Ben and a bunch fo us just sit around and talk and laugh at a girl named Kari who kept putting a box on her head to avoid an underage. (Don't ask, she was really drunk.) After a bit I start asking people about Denielle and they all say she's downstairs dancing and I'm thinking "Okay, when she's ready to go she'll come up. Let her have a good time since she's safe here." And when she does finally come up she's standing right next to Lenard and he has his arms wrapped around her. As soon as she sees me sitting on the couch she runs over to me. "Sarah, Lenard tried to kiss me, but I stopped him, aren't you proud of me??" She has this goofy look on her face and she's still doing that whole provacitive thing which lets me know she's starting to get a little more tipped. I tell her to be careful and she asks me again if I'm proud of her. I say "yeah, sure" but what I'm really thinking is "If you stopped him and wanted to stop him so bad then why the hell are you all over him??" and right after that thought passes through my head she's back standing by Lenard, smiling and doing whatever. I ask what time it is. Keith tells me it's 2 am and when I hear that I ask Denielle if we can leave yet. She says "No, no, I'm not ready to go yet" and asks me when my class is. When I say 9am she says oh, okay, and tells me to walk home by myself, "It's not that far". When I say no and get mad the whole room starts talking to me like I'm an idiot for wanting to be safe and go in groups like you're SUPPOSED TO. Then when I turn around Denielle hands me my jacket and tells me it'll be fine and so I leave. I'm really angered by this. I'm always watching her back. Making sure she's safe and doing what she's supposed to but she couldn't do that for me for one night? Whatever. I guess she doesn't know what it feels like to have the girls standing outside threaten to kick your ass because they're drunk and angry. Or how it feels to have a car full of drunken guys slow down and ask you where your going, if you need a ride and why you look so upset and then follow you for a bit. Ugh. I'm so angry with her that I havent even talked to her since last night except what I needed to say. 12:43 p.m. - 2005-10-14 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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