t-r-u-t-h's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Roller Coaster. About the same time I decide that life is going good for me is the time when someone decides that my life needs to be a little more f'ed up. I find this emotional roller coaster way too hard to ride. I feel like maybe someone should have stopped me before I got on and informed me that I wasn’t stable enough to hop on this ride any time soon, but no. People don’t care. They’ll decide how often you ride and just how many loops there will be. I find myself on the verge of tears way too often. I find myself in tears more than I would like to admit. I get so happy lately. So excited and then within that hour I’m back in tears, crying because someone keeps screwing me over (though you’d be hard pressed to get them to admit it). It’s hard for me to focus because I am so distressed currently. Earlier today we decided so many things... now it seems like all either of us can do is cry and be upset. I’m so willing to do so much. I swear I would. I honestly just want to scream and run and never think twice about what’s going on or what happened or what really won’t happen. I’m so depressed. I want to hate him. It would be fair if I did. 11:23 p.m. - 2005-08-13 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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